I was hoping that crossing the line would somehow bring the next chapter into focus. If anything it felt more like starting over with new goals and an increased pressure to get it right. It could literally now mean life or death. I wonder how my own mother felt as she made life changing decisions at about the same age. I wish I had paid more attention, It’s been almost 13 years since I’d last had a chance to seek her advice, or hear her tell a story.